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“This Is How I Overcome”

Pambihira! It is really hard to play this game we call LIFE. There are just too many stuffs to comply. Many problems but few are solutions.

It is really difficult to communicate with other people especially with those you don’t know the most. What if you told a secret to a person that you thought you can trust the most? A secret about your biggest crush, most embarrassing moment and other things that you don’t want to know by any other people. It means that you are putting a big percent of your trust to that person. Now, this is the question,”What if at the moment that person moved behind you and walking far away from you, you will just suddenly know,’alam na pala ng buong kapaligiran ang sekreto mo’, what are you going to do? Baka mamura mo ako or worse. You know, this situation had already happened to me. From that stage of my life, I learned that you must not put your trust to a person fully. You must know that person very well before putting your trust to him or her. At that, I did nothing because it was too late. It caused me heartaches.

It is also hard to love somebody truly and wholly. Paano ko naman nasabi iyon? Of course, I experienced it. There’s a moment in my life that I loved somebody so much. So much that I already gave my everything, but from her, I got nothing. I did everything to make her mine. I visited her when she needed somebody to talk with, helped her in her studies, made her laugh. In return, I got nothing. Pinagmukha niya akong TANGA.

Because of that experiences in my life about love, I’ve decided,”Tama na, tigilan ko na toh, this might be the end, I will just put my attentions on my studies. I will get nothing if I continue this fantasy.” What do you think? Is that good or not? Kasi, it is better for the both of us if I will focus on my studies and leave this kind of love second in line.

“Ways on how to kill yourself!” Nyek! Gulat ka, hano? You’re not expecting that one to be in here, right? Okay, this is the real thing. It is really hard to die, die from being a KRISTIYANO. On what way of dying? The dying of the fire of the Lord in our hearts. It is difficult to be back again in the heart of worship. But by the Grace of God, we are still here, walking along the path that He told us to.

I am really sad with this happy life. Hu? There are many troubles and challenges in life that we need to conquer that help us to stand firm in able for us to play this game we call LIFE. Basta, set your goals and you’ll surely be successful in your own ways.


I feel so sorry when I wrote this one. It is all about hatred. I should not have wrote this. But then, I just want to express my feelings and get this hatred out of my heart. I’m okay now, I feel better, I hope. Reminder: Don’t be reacting so much when reading this. I will put it to trash if so!



(Date written: Feb. O8. 2011)

Yesterday, Feb. 07, 2011, somebody gave me those very inspiring and uplifting words (so ironic!). That person said that I was more than that she expected. Kesyo, ako raw ang worst sa magkakapatid. Ako raw yung laging laman ng church pero nakapasuwail naman sa bahay. Napaka-dominating ko raw. Di ko raw katulad yung mga nakatatanda kong kapatid (well, don’t ever compare me, darling). Ako raw talaga yung worst. Sa susunod daw na bastusin ko siya (even if I did not), pakakainin daw niya ako ng kanyang kamao. Super sumbat din siya sa mga nagawa raw niya sa akin. Kapag daw nagkatrabaho ako, baka raw lalo ko silang pagmalakihan ( I will not). Pinupuri raw ako sa loob ng church at school pero sa bahay, I’m just the worst child. Another person was there also and super sulsol naman siya sa taong nanenermon sa’kin (lintik yan!). I hate being here, but I definitely love being my self. I want to get out of this world that Ive stucked of. I hope I can tell this to them, “Ni minsan ba, did you ever ask me kung bakit ako nagkakaganito? Ever since, you haven’t.” Di ko naman masabi kasi pinandidilatan lang naman niya ako ng mata at dinuduro pa ako, “Walanghiya ka, ANAK LANG KITA, gumaganyan ka. Pa’no pa kaya kung pinapakain mo kami? Walanghiya ka! PALAMUNIN LANG KITA…” Second the motion naman ang other person doon, “Ganyan naman talaga yan, eh!” Di na lang nila sinabi na PLASTIK NA DEMONYO ako (buisit yan!) Nakapag-formulate tuloy ako ng equation,


Where J is for Jocaz, W is Walanghiya, D is Demonyo ang P is Palamunin. Puro yan ang naririnig ko sa kanila, eh (unlimited, kumbaga!). Ang saya talaga, hano?! Take note, wala silang naririnig sakin habang sinesermunan nila ako. Ni ha, ni ho, wala! (buisit yan! Nasisira buhay ko sa bahay na ito! Lintik yan!). Ito pa, may mga college students sa tapat ng bahay namin na nakatambay at alam ko at paniguradong naririnig nila ang very encouraging and uplifting words of wisdom na iniaalay lamang sakin. Owh! I remember, may nakatatanda daw na nagpapasabi na habang maaga pa daw ay putulin na dapat ang sungay ko. Sa ginagawa nila, di siguro nila naiisip na baka mas lalo pang humaba pag pinagpatuloy nila iyon. (F**k them!). Very annoying, very distracting. Ang lakas makapanira ng araw tuwing naaalala ko yung nangyaring panenermon. So far, magdadalawang oras na ang wlaang habas na pagmumura at panenermon nila sakin. I cannot stand with it anymore! Tinalikuran ko sila without any facial expression and any sound na nagdadabog and went outside the house para kalmahin ang aking damdamin (parang robot nga ako, eh!). I think that will make things better.

I really love being myself and I hate being at house. Actually, I don’t feel anything anymore. Should I say, manhid na ako!” Labas pasok na lang sa mga tenga ko ang panenermon nila, eh!


“……………..maybe I am really bad, but I can change it kung makikita lang nila ang mga magaganda sakin na maaaring natatabunan lang ng masama……………………….”


(Date written: July 17, 2011)

Thank God, I’ve changed already. I forgave them already and I have been forgiven. Thank you Jesus Christ. This moment, I read it again and felt ashamed at the same time happy. Because I know that I’ve changed and I will never be back to the way I used to be. Sabi ko nga sa mga kabataan na namemeet ko at nakaka-usap, “Let us go the past. Let us shake off the baggage. We will never be forgiven unless we forgive ourselves, accept that we’ve sinned, confess our sins and get up and start moving.” For a youth like us, maybe we are presently undergoing to a very difficult situation that may seem not to have any solution. It will come to a point that we are going to ask God the “why questions”. Lord, “Bakit naman ako pa? Bakit sa’kin mo ibinigay ang ganito kalaking problema? Not me, Lord. NOT ME!” Instead of aking the “why questions”, why don’t we just kneel on a prayer and throw at God the question that can immediately have answers. “Lord, what is your purpose in giving me this problem or letting this to happen? Tell me, Jesus. Tell me what is the right thing to do to glorify your name.” Maybe those questions are better. Ask God what to do, get up and start moving.

Remember. Let go of the past, Shake off the baggage and Get up and start moving.

God Bless us all.

Once there was a boy, he was sad but not mad. He went to 2 kinds of beaches but he wanted to go to the beach that’s all decorated with lights but he had to stay home because he was sick. So that’s why the boy was sad but not mad. THE END
By: Byron Plamenco 6 y/o
This was told by a 6 y/o and it was so amazing that at his young age, he’s able to express himself. Well, I’m his cousin and I’m proud of it!

“Sayang, Sayang ang Lahat”

Sayang ang lahat,
Hindi lang pera, hindi lang effort,
Pati ang suporta na mula sa kanila,
Naka-iiyak man ngunit kailangan tanggapin
“Kuya Josh, bakit ka sumuko kaagad?
Ikaw yung may sabi sa’min na ‘wag kaagad sumuko e,
Nakaka-inis ka.”
“Basta, big secret, may cashunduan lang na involve, hehe.
Pwede ko naman kayong tulungan
Kahit wala akong posisyon e.”
Na-iiyak ako, di ko lang masabi sa kanila ang totoong dahilan
Basta, yun na yun
Wala ng salita-salita
Hehehe,! Tawanan na lang yan

“Worthless, Everything is Worthless”

Worthless, everything is worthless
Not only the money,
Not only the effort have I exerted,
But also the support I got from them
Although I am crying,
I must accept the real thing
“Kuya Josh, why did you withdraw?
You are always saying to us that
We must not give up,
But now…”
“Ha? It’s nothing, just a big secret.
I just have some money problem.
I can serve the school
Without any position, right?”
I cannot say the real thing,
The truth
Okay, it’s enough, no more words
Just make fun out of it.

Everything above is true; I did many sacrifices for that thing I withdrew from. I gave everything that I can give. I gave money, I exerted effort, and I gave myself. But, after all those things, I got nothing. “Worthless, everything is worthless”. The real thing is, I didn’t withdraw, they, the committee pulled me out, for they said that I have some technical problems. It’s okay with me because I have an idea of that problem. But the issue is they pulled me out the day before the big thing, before the election. They said that the screening committee screened carefully the candidates. But, why did I pass out? Sorry for the word, but they are not responsible on what they are doing.

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The activity coordinator told me, “Joshua, after lunch break, the candidates will have the last miting de avance. And I am asking you to tell to the whole student body that you are withdrawing your candidacy. Just understand the situation, okay.” Do you think that’s right? Although it is good for me, my reputation will not be on the hook, but my point is they told me that way so that the students won’t think that they are irresponsible. Hello, it’s not okay with me. If you are at my situation, what are you going to feel? Try to think of it.

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Kailan pa nagkaroon ng Kwenta ang Blog na Walang Kwenta?

Hehehe! Kailan pa nagkaroon ng kwenta ang blog na wala naman talagang kwenta? Ito ba ay noong tinanggalan ito ng kwenta o ‘di naman kaya’y binigyan ito ng walang kakwentahan. Ang gulo hano, naka-dudugo ng brain. May brain ba ako? Naku, lalo pang nakagulo.

Ako nga pala si Joshua na ang first name ay Joshua at ang last name ay Canlas, for short Joshua Canlas. Ano ba ang nasa name ko? Aba’y hindi ko alam, all I know is mula pa ng since birth ko e nandito na ako kasama ng name ko. Basta, pinapagulo ko lang buhay niyo e. Do you like to read more? Hope you will!

What if? What if lang ha. What if eh lumabas ako sa harap mo at this very moment.

Tapos, bigla kong sabihin sa’yo na. “May mamamatay, buwahahaha!” Hinde, biro lang, takot ka noh. Ang sasabihin ko talaga kung saka-sakali na makita mo ko e, “Ay! ba’t ako nandito? BYEH, balik na ako sa computer, sige, tuloy mo lang ang basa mo. Bye..h!” Hehe! yun nga ang sasabihin ko sa’yo, bye na. Continue reading lang ha..!

P.S.: Sana’y huwag kang ma-disappoint sa pst ko na ito na puno ng kacornyhan! Trial lang baga!